Chasing cars

I refuse to believe what's real.

Fri, 22 Mar 2013 13:37:30 -0400

For some reason, I’ve always been the kind of girl that wouldn’t really expect anything. But then again, in my mind, I’d go “I wish someone said this to me.” or “I wish someone would look at me this way.” But then again, even if those things did cross my mind, I never really expected any of those to happen cause, personally, for me, I never really believed anything remotely close to what could still possibly happen with the modern gentleman we have today. Even if the man wasn’t a gentleman, let it be some skater guy you fall in love with, I just didn’t think anyone would ever mention anything close to what I usually see on thought catalogues or Tumblr posts or typographs. It would be nice to read and hear and hope for, but then not really enough to really want because reality exceeds what’s seen on the internet for once.

But then again this guy always seems to prove me wrong. In all my 19 years of living, I’ve never had someone tell me anything better than what I read online or what I see on movies, until last week. Sometimes I still have to persuade myself of the reality of the situation that just happened, but it was just too good. And like the kind of girl I am, anything that’s close to ‘too good’ scares me because I’ve always been one who’s had it ‘too bad’.

“I really love you, you know? You’re so beautiful, and every time you walk towards me smiling it’s like I still can’t believe I’m in a relationship with a girl like you. I only ever had the happiness of looking at you a couple of times before but now I’m more than blessed to see your face and hold you in my arms every single day. Whenever you walk towards me, it ALWAYS still feels like the first time. When your hair moves with the wind and I see your mouth starting to curl up to a smile when you see me, it kills me. You get me weak on my knees every single time and when you say my name, it’s like it’s not even real. And whenever I look at you and I see you smile or laughing I always think “God damn, I love this woman.”

How I memorize every single word, I don’t know. Maybe it’s cause I keep replaying it in my head every single night, still trying to figure out if it’s real or not. But I know it is, then again, I feel like it isn’t. And even though I’ve always lived in fear every day to have this “too good” of a man as my boyfriend, I cope by thinking that “Maybe I’ve had too much bad already that maybe now it’s time for something that’s too good.”

"And it’s been a while, but I still feel the same"

Wed, 20 Mar 2013 01:15:33 -0400

“And it’s been a while, but I still feel the same”

- Ed Sheeran (via jnicolacola)

Potential

Tue, 19 Mar 2013 13:01:53 -0400

jnicolacola:

“Love yourself more.”

My mom’s always been understanding and supportive of my relationships, and for the reason that having that ‘s’ added to the end of that word gives justice to why she’s probably not as enthusiastic about the one I’m in right now. Deep inside I know she knows that he’s going to be a good one, and possibly the last one too. All I can do is be hopeful as well and pray and work hard for that to happen. But because of the relationships I’ve gone through, my guess is that, as good as any other mom, she’s just really tired of getting hurt from seeing me cry at the end of every relationship.

“Love yourself more.”

I know what she means, and I really do get that from a motherly perspective. Although, sometimes I wish she wasn’t as hard on Robert. She knows very well that he’s different from other guys, but I guess she’s had too much trust given to the wrong guys I’ve dated already that she can’t take any chances with this one right now. All in all, she’s been decent and nice, but the times that she reminds him to love me, it starts being unpleasant.

“Love yourself more.”

“Yes, mom, I know.” “But why does it seem like you’re still giving so much?” I am reserving something for myself, mom. Of course if things won’t work, it’s not like I haven’t gone through heartbreak before. Not saying that I’m an expert on the matter, but I guess it’s become a constant part of my life that it’s lead me more to hoping that it won’t happen anymore. This one’s a keeper, and I know that he makes me better and want to work hard on myself. But like I said, heartbreak… it’s nothing like a tub of ice cream and 2 weeks of non-stop crying can’t fix. And then I’m back to dieting and exercising every single day. At least I know that at the end of a heartbreak, I’m still taken care of by the person I know who’s never going to leave me: Myself.

“Love yourself more.”

Which is why I know that I deserve more and that will never change. I can always count on myself and that will never change. Myself can make myself the happiest and that can never change. So know that I will always love myself more.

For me, it’s only different when you’re in a relationship though. “Love yourself more.” I do, mom. But doesn’t mean I’ll hold anything back. Because really…

What good is it to love someone with only half the potential you know you’re capable of?

MADE A NEW TUMBLR CAUSE THIS ONE'S TOO CRAZY. LOL.

Mon, 18 Mar 2013 13:24:40 -0400

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Are You With The Right Partner?

Sat, 09 Mar 2013 05:07:38 -0500

sandreanachan:

A Must Read…♥
ARE YOU WITH THE RIGHT PARTNER?

During a seminar, a woman asked,” How do I know if I am with the right person?”

The author then noticed that there was a large man sitting next to her so he said, “It depends. Is that your partner?” In all seriousness, she answered “How do you know?” Let me answer this question because the chances are good that it’s weighing on your mind
replied the author.

Here’s the answer.

Every relationship has a cycle… In the beginning; you
fall in love with your partner. You anticipate their calls,
want their touch, and like their idiosyncrasies. Falling in love wasn’t hard. In fact, it was a completely natural and spontaneous experience. You didn’t have to DO anything. That’s why it’s called “falling” in love.

People in love sometimes say, “I was swept of my feet.”Picture the expression. It implies that you were just standing there; doing nothing, and then something happened TO YOU.

Falling in love is a passive and spontaneous experience. But after a few months or years of being together, the euphoria of love fades. It’s a natural cycle of EVERY relationship.

Slowly but surely, phone calls become a bother (if they come at all), touch is not always welcome (when it happens), and your spouse’s idiosyncrasies, instead of being cute, drive you nuts. The symptoms of this stage vary with every relationship; you will notice a dramatic difference between the initial stage when you were in love and a much duller or even angry subsequent stage.

At this point, you and/or your partner might start asking, “Am I with the right person?” And as you reflect on the euphoria of the love you once had, you
may begin to desire that experience with someone
else. This is when relationships breakdown.

The key to succeeding in a relationship is not finding the right person; it’s learning to love the person you found.

People blame their partners for their unhappiness and look outside for fulfillment. Extramarital fulfillment comes in all shapes and sizes.

Infidelity is the most common. But sometimes people turn to work, a hobby, friendship, excessive TV, or abusive substances. But the answer to this dilemma does NOT lie outside your relationship. It lies within it.

I’m not saying that you couldn’t fall in love with someone else. You could. And TEMPORARILY you’d feel better. But you’d be in the same situation a few years later.

Because (listen carefully to this):

The key to succeeding in a Relationship is not finding the right person; it’s learning to love the Person you found.

SUSTAINING love is not a passive or spontaneous experience. You have to work on it day in and day out. It takes time, effort, and energy. And most importantly, it demands WISDOM. You have to know
WHAT TO DO to make it work. Make no mistake about it.

Love is NOT a mystery. There are specific things you can do (with or without your partner), Just as there are physical laws Of the universe (such as gravity), there are also laws for relationships. If you know how to apply these laws, the results are predictable.

Love is therefore a “decision”. Not just a feeling.

Remember this always: God determines who walks into your life. It is up to you to decide who you let walk away, who you let stay, and who you refuse to let GO! ♥

"If you find a girl who reads, keep her close. When you find her up at 2 AM clutching a book to her..."

Fri, 01 Mar 2013 05:21:34 -0500

“If you find a girl who reads, keep her close. When you find her up at 2 AM clutching a book to her chest and weeping, make her a cup of tea and hold her. You may lose her for a couple of hours but she will always come back to you. She’ll talk as if the characters in the book are real, because for a while, they always are. Date a girl who reads because you deserve it. You deserve a girl who can give you the most colorful life imaginable. If you can only give her monotony, and stale hours and half-baked proposals, then you’re better off alone. If you want the world and the worlds beyond it, date a girl who reads.”

- Robert Pattinson

the best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us...

Sun, 03 Feb 2013 04:05:37 -0500

the best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds. and that’s what you’ve given me.

"For you, a thousand times over."

Sat, 12 Jan 2013 11:42:13 -0500

“For you, a thousand times over.”

- The Kite Runner by Khaled Hosseini (via quote-book)

"What a terrible thing it is to wound someone you really care for - and to do it so unconsciously."

Fri, 11 Jan 2013 05:02:11 -0500

“What a terrible thing it is to wound someone you really care for - and to do it so unconsciously.”

- Haruki Murakami (Norwegian Wood)

I fall inlove with people’s passion.

Fri, 11 Jan 2013 04:22:37 -0500

I fall inlove with people’s passion.

dannae: melodiemae: cupio-scire-omne: Marriage is not about religion.Atheists marry.Marriage is...

Fri, 04 Jan 2013 02:14:44 -0500

dannae:

melodiemae:

cupio-scire-omne:

Marriage is not about religion.
Atheists marry.
Marriage is not about procreation.
The infertile marry.
Marriage is not about finance.
It can weave poverty.
Marriage is about love.
That’s it.
And that’s beautiful.

Amen.

I WANT THIS!

Fri, 04 Jan 2013 02:11:04 -0500

I WANT THIS!

Oh, Lord. I can’t sleep and now I wish I was playing...

Thu, 20 Dec 2012 12:51:16 -0500

Oh, Lord. I can’t sleep and now I wish I was playing Pokemon. :(

honestly, some of the sexiest things about a guy is the way his voice sounds when he’s tired, the...

Thu, 13 Dec 2012 12:30:49 -0500

honestly, some of the sexiest things about a guy is the way his voice sounds when he’s tired, the smirk of satisfactory he gets on his face when he knows he’s done something good, and the protective instincts he has when it comes to his girl

I Want You to Want Me

Wed, 12 Dec 2012 09:30:08 -0500

When you told me that you always get what you want, I suddenly thought that “I want you to want me.”. But I know you already do, considering you made me your girlfriend. What I’m trying to say is, I want you to want me. I want you to really really want me. I want you to want me in a way that it would scare you and it would hurt you if you would lose me. I want you to want me in the way that you see yourself far off in the future and I’ll be there because I’m one of the things you really want. Alongside with what you really want out of life and what you want to do with it and what you want to achieve and what dreams and goals you have, I want to be that kind of want. The want you’d really want to work hard for. The kind of want you won’t give up on. The kind of want you can’t risk doing something stupid to cause it’ll impact your life heavily if you lose me. I want to be the want that’s going to be one of the reasons why you are happy and the kind of want to keep cause you want to keep me there. The kind of want where you just need me at the end of the line and you’ll work your ass off for. The kind of want that won’t come easy but no matter how far off I am in the finish line, you’d do whatever it takes to finish that race for me because you know you entered something you figured that’s really important to you and that it won’t matter anymore whether you get a trophy in the end or not, for as long as you know I’m at the end waiting for you, then you’ll do anything to reach me there. I want to be the want that inspires you throughout your whole life to work harder, to be better, to move past all the finish lines you’ve crossed and make new races because you know there’s something infinitely better than everything you’ve ever accomplished. I want to be the kind of want that you’d want to be there during your last race because I’m that important to witness all your goals and successes. The kind of want you realize you wanted because you love it that much that you would want it to stay there forever.

The kind of want that’s simple enough to make things easy for you, or everything would be easy, because it’s us, but when things get hard, I want to be the kind of want to work on us… because I want you too.

DAMN IT! I’VE BEEN WANTING THIS FOR THE LONGEST TIME NOW!

Mon, 10 Dec 2012 09:18:20 -0500

DAMN IT! I’VE BEEN WANTING THIS FOR THE LONGEST TIME NOW!

Sorry friends, couldn’t help it. I NEEDED to reblog this....

Sun, 09 Dec 2012 06:48:51 -0500

Sorry friends, couldn’t help it. I NEEDED to reblog this. LOL

Best best best feelings in the world.

Sat, 08 Dec 2012 06:17:51 -0500

Best best best feelings in the world.

"I would like to be known as an intelligent woman, a courageous woman, a loving woman, a woman who..."

Fri, 07 Dec 2012 22:34:40 -0500

“I would like to be known as an intelligent woman, a courageous woman, a loving woman, a woman who teaches by being.”

- Maya Angelou (via imfantasyparade)

Be with someone who is proud of you.

Fri, 30 Nov 2012 01:38:51 -0500

Be with someone who is proud of you.